I am Summer Breeze, and I have an unhealthy obsession with food. I am genetically fortunate that I have never gained weight beyond the point of "thickening up", and yet that fortune has caused me to ignore my improper food relationship.
- A good chicken alfredo and garlic bread can right all my wrongs anyday, anytime. Nevermind that after overindulging in such a meal, I feel disgusted with my self, not to mention overstuffed and miserable.
- When planning a trip to a familiar place, if there are restaurants I really like, I plan out breakfast, lunch, and dinner of each day to make sure I fit them all in. I am genuinely frustrated if I can't fit them all in, and I have overeaten in the past because I was determined to eat at one last restaurant.
- When I take a bite of something delish -- My eyes roll back and I moan. Yeah, it's like that.
- A friend pointed out in college that I actually tap my feet or shake my leg when I'm eating something that makes me happy.
- I have come up to work on an off day because we were having a free catered lunch from a nice restaurant. -- That is just shameful to write.
So this year 2008, I have chosen to confront that dysfunctional relationship. It's a confrontation that's been building since the latter part of '07 and coincided with the new year. Blessedly, Quel's sister introduced me to myfooddiary.com. Having to journal my food choices has been a most eye-opening experience.
I've tried counting fat grams in the past, but that regimen always made me shaky. Literally, my hands would shake I would be so hungry between meals. Not a good look -- or feeling. I saw this tip today on myfooddiary.com:
|Hunger and Dieting|
Eureka! That tip was right on time. Everyday I question whether I am doing things right precisely because I don't feel hungry. I equate eating right and healthy with starvation and misery. Not so! I can still have the aforementioned chicken alfredo, just maybe half of it. And it must be balanced with a day's worth of healthy choices.
So big ups to Adrianne for acquainting me with this site. I wholeheartedly recommend it to anyone who seriously needs to get a handle on what they are eating.